2019 was the year I finally started sharing my story.
Incredible opportunities we literally handed to me. Between social media, my blog, podcasts I was invited to be on and even an article about my story by another blogger, I have been challenged and blessed.
I swear to you, when the year began, I had no intention of going public with my story. I was pretty content to sit in the rooms of my AA, safe and cozy, and to protect my anonymity. I liked it that way.
I'm so grateful that this is the direction that God leads me. It's not for everyone to break their anonymity, and I certainly didn't think it was for me either, until I got the first taste of the truest freedom I've felt in years. I was beginning to feel a standstill in my program and needed something new to spice things up, but it's scary, really scary, to break out of a comfort zone and be vulnerable.
As Brene Brown says, "Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren't always comfortable, but they are never a weakness."
It was also getting really hard for me to do the balancing act of "who knows?" and "who doesn't?". I found that I was walking an invisible tightrope bobbing between being one person here and another there. Openly talking program-talk with you and completely hiding it from another. Eventually, the two worlds collided and before I knew it, I was telling my story and not holding back. Today, I live life where I just really don't care who knows I'm in recovery. In fact, I'm proud of it. (Who would have ever thought!?!!!)
Thank you, dear readers and friends, for following me on my journey and for helping me stay sober.
I can't wait to see what kind of surprises this new year and new decade have in store for me and my sobriety!