So, about six months ago, I started attending a new AA group. After one of my first meetings, a kind, gentle man, by the name of John, approached me with a smile and asked "have you ever told your story?". Apparently, I had shared something that day that he found interesting (don't ask me...things shoot out of my mouth all the time that I can't remember two minutes later). Yes, I had shared my story with my old group the year before...and I hated it.
It was awful. At least, I thought it was.
I didn't speak from the heart.
I was so nervous that I had written everything down, word for word, and just read. Not exactly how it's supposed to be done and I walked away feeling like I really hadn't truly told my story. I had shared just a recited version of it.
John went on to explain that he had started a podcast called Sober Speak where, each week, he invites someone in recovery (any 12-Step program) to have a personal, one-on-one conversation about their recovery. Hmmm...I could do that! That sounds so comfortable to me. Yep, I'm in.
Friends, please take a listen to the Sober Speak podcast. Over 100 epidsodes now! So much great recovery, sobriety, and words of experience, strength and hope. I am so grateful to this kind man who allowed me to find my voice and share it with you.
On a side note, little did I know what an incredible gift being a guest on Sober Speak would be for me! I have been able to share the podcast with sponsees, friends and most of all, my family. My family, who stuck by me, even though they didn't understand alcoholism. Even though, they had never witnessed alcoholism with a loved one. Yep, I was the first as far as I know! This podcast became my love letter to them. Something they can listen to so they can understand my journey of rock bottom and eventually, my journey of recovery. There are still a few things that I wish I could have a do-over on, but so grateful!
(and because I'm totally inept at doing this, I can't figure out how to link the podcast!!! Just click on "Podcasts" in the upper right hand corner of my blog page to link automatically...until I figure this out. ERRRRG!)